With other guys loads, you are still horny. After you cum, not so much. 1 guy made me jerkoff before i blew him, he said that proves I love cock. And am not just horny.
Yes, same. Went along time of jerking, then either washing it off my hand, or spitting it out. I finally pushed past it by just eating it. It took awhile, but now at times i still have to push myself to eat it.